Anywhere but nowhere I want to go

Maybe I just woke up on the wrong side of bed or maybe I didn't consume enough coffee. For whatever the reason, I was taking bus right, left and centre and never ended up to where I wanted to go. My destination was "Len's Mill;" a craft store with a bunch of useful items for your home. It's a great place to Christmas shop but I happen to get on the wrong bus which led me to the other end of town in Nella's neighbourhood. Should I or shouldn't I visit Nellla today? She would probably be in her nice cosy bed. I didn't want to disturb her. I know that I don't like surprised visits. But maybe I would shake off the sleep from her eyes and add a little sunshine to her day. What I really wanted was for her and I to go to "Len's Mill," together.
My friend Shelly or an acquaintance got on the bus, spoke to the bus driver and declared that I was definitely on the wrong bus. The logical thing to do was get on the right bus which was the York bus. As the bus started to move out of downtown, I realized that it was going in the wrong direction. I thought that the road must be closed, so I stayed on thinking I would get to my destination within one of these hours. But no...the bus was headed down Gordon Street and I asked the bus driver if it was the Gordon Street bus. "Sure is," he replied. I was headed either for the grocery store or the university library. I got off at the university but I I missed my stop closest to the university and had to walk a short distance craving a coffee. Believe it or not, they sell coffee in the library and you can even bring your lunch while working on projects if you want. Times have changed since I was a student at the university. Despite the long lineup for the use of the computers, it is a really good place to hang out and be creative. I feel young enough to be a student but I refused to put the like into my vocabulary. We all have those periods of time where all we want to be is cool. Wear what everybody else is wearing to keep up with the latest fashions. Now that I am forty, I wear whatever looks nice. You could say that I have my own fashion and definitely my own tastes.
I am a bit frustrated that I didn't get everything done today. I had Larry on my mind. Larry, a friend, is in the hospital and hardly coherent. He is in bad shape and I do hope he get's better. He is the kind of person I thought, who didn't require the hospital; one who was resilient. But I guess everybody needs there down time and some more than others. Anybody could go into the hospital, they just don't realize it. It is a psychiatric hospital, which having been admitted there myself in the past, I've lost friends; friends that I thought would understand. But let's face it. People get scared when they hear the word mental illness and either panic or start to run. What most people don't realize, is that if you face a mid-life crisis, where are you going to go?
I wanted to do all these things today, but really ended up doing two; visiting Larry and writing in my blog. I guess all is not a total loss. I visited Larry yesterday, and he seemed to be in his own little world. He doesn't want to eat or get off his bed, which is very uncharacteristic of Larry because he loves doing things and he loves food. This is not the Larry I know. It is almost like talking to a diffeerent person. But I have to tell myself, that people are helping him in the hospital and that is a good thing. Christmas will be different this year with Larry in the hospital but my friends and I will have to be patient and adjus.